Daily Reflection

“You can’t control everything. Sometimes you just need to relax and have faith that things will work out. Let go a little and just let life happen.” (Kody Keplinger)

I was staring out the front door late one afternoon recently during a huge rain and wind storm when I noticed the flag on our 20-foot pole was all tangled up around it and not flying freely in the wind like it usually does. In past storms, I’ve often gone outside to fix this when it’s happened, only to see it get tangled right back up again not too long after. But something within me this time said, “Hey, why not just have some faith and trust that it will untangle itself by the time the storm has passed.” I decided to listen to that small voice and sure enough the next morning the storm had ended and the flag was proudly flying in the breeze uninhibited once more.

As I pondered this simple miracle, I thought of all the health issues I’ve been going through for so long now. On some level, I’ve been in the midst of a very extended storm that often feels quite relentless. Because of this, I’ve tended to do what most might in my situation, which is to try to control the situation and find ways to “untangle” myself during all these heavy rains and winds that continue to blast me on most days. While some of those ways have done so for very short periods of time, none have ever lasted very long. In light of that, from somewhere within me, I heard that voice again ask, “Hey, why not just have some faith and trust that you will become untangled when your storm has fully passed.” And you know what, I think that inner voice is right. So, I’m going to keep doing my best to have faith and trust that all these “tangled up” health issues are going to fully resolve themselves by the time it’s over and without any of my control.

Dear God, please help me to keep having enough faith and trust in You that all these heavy winds and rains which keep on tangling me up in one health issue after another will eventually pass, and that I will become completely untangled by then, and without having to exert any of my control to get there.

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

Silly Joke Friday

A mate-less frog was suffering from some lonely holiday season blues when he decided one December afternoon to go visit a fortune teller to find out if he would ever be lucky in love.

The fortune teller read his cards and when done told the lonely frog, “I have some good news for you and I have bad news for you. Which one would you like to hear first?”

The frog decided to ask for the good news first.

The fortune teller then said, “You are going to meet the most beautiful girl, who is going to be very interested in you and will want to know all about you. She will want you to open up for her and you will give her your heart.”

“That’s great!” said the lonely frog, suddenly smiling for the first time, in a very long time. “But what’s the bad news?”

“Well, you’re going to meet her in Biology class…”

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

Thought For The Day

“Addiction – A disease that makes you too selfish to see the havoc you created or care about the people whose lives you shattered.” (Anonymous)

AND

“Addiction is the only disease that tells you that you don’t have a disease.” (Jason Z W Powers, MD)

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

One Of the Many Consequences That Can Arise From Living Deep In An Addiction…

When an addiction takes over someone’s life, it’s quite normal for them to completely forget their actions and behaviors while in the throngs of the disease and even long after they find recovery as well. I was reminded of this when my sister visited me a week ago and the topic of my mother’s passing arose.

As we were reflecting on the many difficult things we went through after our mother’s tragic passing, my sister suddenly laughed and said “I still can’t believe you kept hitting on that funeral director while we were trying to discuss all the arrangements for her burial.” I then looked at her strangely and said “I have no idea what you’re talking about?” She then told me I had spent the entire time sitting in this funeral director’s office attempting to get his phone number for the sole purpose of hooking up, instead of grieving my Mom’s passing and focusing on how we wanted him to handle her remains. But even worse, my sister also reminded me that this funeral director had been a married man and how it seemed as if that hadn’t mattered to me whatsoever.

Sadly, this is probably just one of many addiction-based incidents I either vaguely remember or don’t remember at all from life. And to be totally honest, the only reason why I wasn’t able to recollect this specific acting out incident was because of how deep I was living in the disease back then. You see, when someone is that deep in an addiction, there is an illness that pervades every facet of their life that all too often causes the person to become completely unaware of any of their actions and behaviors. It’s almost as if the person’s mind gets shut off from recording any of their sick acting out experiences. Maybe that’s because it doesn’t want to take ownership and instead live in total denial? Whatever the reason why the mind often forgets to record the details of an addiction-based incident, the fact remains it’s but one of the many consequences that can arise from living deep in an addiction.

Ultimately, this is precisely why I keep on thanking God every day for being clean and sober from all of the addictions I once suffered from. I’m so grateful that I can clearly see now how insane of a life I had when yet another addiction was fully consuming my life. And I pray somehow that me continuing to share stories like this will help others who may be living deep in an addiction themselves. Maybe it will help them to wake up and realize the consequences of doing so are often heartbreaking and painful, just like it was for me in being totally unable to remember an entire afternoon from my life that was meant to be a time of grieving and instead became a time of living in total sickness…

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson