“The closer one comes to truth, the further one gets from mind.” (James Pierce)
When you finally stop fighting and trying to control things in life, it really does become a lot easier to see things far more clearly, like the status of my relationship with my partner Chris, something that in all honesty is presently in shambles, solely because we both got away from what truly mattered, that being connecting to each other via the heart.
When you aren’t working through the heart to connect with someone, there’s really only one other place to operate out of, and that’s the mind, which is a deadly place to remain in and have your relationship through and the very reason why Chris and I are in the state we are now.
When things began to go downhill years ago in our relationship, it was because we both started coming at each other with extremely heady thinking. We began rationalizing our way through so many differences always believing each of us were in the right. All that did was tear us further apart again and again until eventually we found ourselves sitting in total opposite corners in life. Our hearts became heavier, sometimes even with an icy coldness exterior towards the other, none of which is conducive to having a healthy relationship. This is why I am doing everything I can now to keep my heart open and find myself working diligently to detach from any tension and potential arguments. While I’ve been successful in this new endeavor, the majority of Chris’s heart remains blocked for a number of reasons, some of which I own and some of which has nothing to do with me.
Either way, as I try to navigate my way through this broken relationship with a now open, but very sorrowful heart, I see so clearly now that nothing truly good ever can come from trying to maintain a relationship through one’s best thinking, when that only ends up stifling the very thing one needs to really connect through, and that’s the heart.
God, please help me operate in every one of my relationships through my heart and not my mind, so that I may always cultivate greater love instead of greater hate.
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson
