“Let us run with determination the race that lies before us…” (Hebrews 12:1 (GNT))
Many people often make goals for themselves but give up somewhere along the way to achieving it. I’ve been there oh…so…many times where I’ve actually set some destination in mind for myself, where I’ve always intended to arrive at, yet stopped running towards it at some point or another, always citing any number of reasons why. Presently, I am on one of those races right now with my eyes fixed on a goal that I made a long while back, and it’s one I realized was the very answer I sought in an article I posted just over a week ago or so, where I asked my readers whether I should keep TheTwelfthStep.com site up and running.
When I wrote that heartfelt article recently about whether I should keep this blog going or not, I was honestly amazed at the number of responses I received after it was officially posted. Ultimately, I soon came to recognize that I was seeking external validation rather than doing the internal job I needed to do to find that answer. While I took to heart every comment and feedback I received to that article, the conclusion I came to was one that most assuredly emanated from within.
I started this blog with a longevity in mind that I promised myself I’d make and if I did make it, I would earmark it for that achievement. That feat was to consecutively write in a blog for 10 years. I wanted to prove to myself I could share something from my life every single day for an entire decade and now, that earmark is almost upon me.
While I’m exhausted on so many levels from keeping this site up and running, January 14th, 2023, will mark the end of a race I first sought to run when it comes to TheTwelfthStep.com. This is why I have decided that I will keep writing up and through that day to achieve a very feat that I never thought possible. What happens beyond that I don’t know.
Maybe this site looks different after that. Maybe I’ll only write once a week about something that truly moves me. Or maybe I won’t write at all for it until I feel moved about something. Or maybe I decide to just shut it down for good. Whatever I choose, I’m satisfied knowing I went within to get the answer and now plan to run the rest of this race with a fierce determination to actually reach the end of one for once in my life.
Dear God, I know the race I’ve been on has been long and arduous, but I also know the finish line is just ahead. All I ask is that you please help me to reach it. Thank you.
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson
