Grateful Heart Monday

Welcome to another entry in my Grateful Heart Monday series, where gratitude is the only expression of the day, which for today is for something that might sound a little odd, but it’s related to a very recent dental visit I had and a daily habit my mother brought me up with.

As a kid, my mother always made sure I brushed my teeth every single morning upon waking and at night before going to bed. I even had to blow air her way to show her my minty freshness to prove I had done my daily oral hygiene exercise, much to my irritation. In addition, she also often made me swish that original, brown-colored liquid Listerine in my mouth after proving I had brushed my teeth, which tasted oh, so, awful. Honestly, I hated doing both and never quite thought any of it was necessary. But, as an adult, it had become a well-established habit that grew to more of a daily obsession, especially when I started meeting plenty of alcoholics and addicts through my 12 Step recovery who had little to no teeth left and terrible breath. That’s when I truly began to feel appreciation for my mother’s upbringing with this daily habit.

These days, I tend to brush my teeth at least twice, and sometimes three times a day. I floss regularly after meals as well. And at the end of the night, I always use a whitening-based Listerine, which frankly tastes far better than the one I used as a kid! Considering that, I recently had my annual dental visit where they take that entire array of mouth x-rays and do the full cleaning as well. When the dentist came in at the end of my appointment, my heart was racing, as I always tend to worry I’m going to be receiving bad news given I do consume a daily sugary coffee. So yes, that idea of having a mouth full of cavities and possible root canals do occupy my headspace each time I find myself at my dental checkups.

In light of that, I’m grateful to report that the dentist, and even the hygienist, both reported nothing except flying colors for my oral hygiene. Even better was the blood pressure test they administered when my appointment began, as it was perfectly normal, something that frankly surprised me due to some high blood pressure issues I had a few months ago, that I now think was related stress and skipping my daily meditations.

Nevertheless, it always amazes me now when I meet someone who’s an adult that says they don’t brush regularly. That actually happened a few weeks ago when someone told me they brush infrequently and can go many days without doing so. They’ve already lost a number of teeth, which I’d think would motivate them to do the habit more regularly, but regardless, hearing this made me feel extremely grateful to my mother, who even in her alcoholism-based-state taught me some pretty darn good values to help me have a healthy oral hygiene as an adult and a full set of teeth.

Thank you, Mom, for teaching me this good habit as a kid that got engrained in me well before my adulthood. I have a healthy oral hygiene today because of you and I dedicate today’s Grateful Heart Monday to you for having this good habit now and to my recent dentist visit that I passed with flying colors because of it.

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

Grateful Heart Monday

Welcome to this week’s entry in my Grateful Heart Monday series, where I continue to focus on expressing a piece of gratitude from my life, which for today stems from having lost my voice for a few days recently that made me realize during it just how much I need to be thankful for it.

Just about a week ago now, I was going through some type of chest cold that began with a pretty serious hacking cough when I suddenly started my voice. It frankly hurt to talk and led to several days where I wasn’t able to speak much at all. During those few days where I found myself listening more than speaking, I had a moment of hypochondria-based panic where I imagined a life where my voice was gone for good, which honestly overwhelmed me immensely.

Sure, I know that I could learn sign language to communicate if that were to ever happen, but with most of the world not knowing that language, I know it would seriously limit my ability to connect with many other human beings like I currently do, something I very much enjoy doing in life presently. I am more of a people person than not and truly enjoy human interaction. I have often thought that if I could ever have one superpower, it would be the ability to communicate in every language of this world. So, even the thought of potentially losing my ability to speak brought up fear.

I use my voice regularly in my 12 Step speaking engagements. A week ago, I spoke to almost 30 people at a detox where quite a few approached me afterward telling me how much my story of addiction to recovery moved them and helped them. I was thankful for that and feel God has given me a strong ability to connect with other human beings through my voice, which is why I don’t take my gift of speaking lightly and have often expressed gratitude for even the ability to do public speaking, something far too many struggle with. But to do public speaking, of course that requires having a voice to start with, and that’s something I never really put much thought to until I mostly lost my voice.

I have much compassion these days for people who don’t have a voice, who are deaf or mute, especially more so now experiencing even a few days where I wasn’t able to communicate effectively. My voice is something I’ve come to rely upon a lot in my life and never really put much thought or gratitude for.

So, I am extremely thankful to God today for having a voice and for my loss of it only being temporary, temporary enough that I was able to reflect upon this and realize how grateful I should be for a part of me that is crucial to my 12 Step recovery presently and to the life I’ve been living.

Thank you, God, for my voice. It’s something I never put much thought toward, that is until I struggled to have one for a few days, which is why I dedicate today’s Grateful Heart Monday to a part of me that You gave me so gratuitously.

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

Grateful Heart Monday

Welcome to another Grateful Heart Monday, where expressing gratitude kicks off my week in writing, which for today is for all those who have forgiving hearts, who are willing to do that hard work of freeing themselves from grudges and resentments and fully letting them go.

Holding onto resentments is probably one of the most toxic things a person can do on their spiritual journey in life. It benefits no one, especially themselves, something I came to know very well during the 12+ years I remained sober from alcohol and drugs but did little to change myself from the former life I lived of alcohol and drug addiction. During all those years, I harbored one grudge after another, looking at so many people, places, and things with total disdain, suffering immensely in the process. When I finally found the gift of the 12 Step recovery program and really worked it to the best of my ability, I learned how much the amends process that comes out of it is a gift not only for those I made amends with, but for myself as well. Forgiving others has brought out many blessings and healing to my heart and soul. It’s why I’m sad when others struggle to do the same with me, because it’s only making this world a darker place for both them and others.

When I recently made a serious attempt to connect with an individual who blocked me on Facebook many years ago, that had developed a resentment with me that I had no idea what it was ever about, they remained uninterested in working through whatever it was. This left me with that sadness I’m speaking of, because I know the freedom that comes through letting all those grudges and resentments go, no matter how big or small they are. Typically I’ve found that the people who struggle letting any of them go become very angry people in life, walking around in this world with an invisible dagger ready to strike at the slightest thing that doesn’t agree with them.

I truly have found such freedom in my life by not being this way. By learning how to have a forgiving heart and working diligently every single day to remain free of resentment, I have healed much of a heart and soul that felt pretty broken for plenty of years. This is exactly why I’m so thankful when others who’ve copped serious resentments with me have become willing to work through them and move beyond them. I have seen the gift it gives them when they’ve done so. There are several people in my life now who have done that very thing with me, who have moved beyond the anger they one held towards me and gotten to the core of what really matters, and that’s loving unconditionally.

So, I’m grateful today for having a forgiving heart and for all those who have the same as well, who don’t like to harbor grudges and resentments, and do the work regularly within themselves to let any of that go whenever it arises. The process of doing this daily not only frees oneself from living in bondage bound with so much anger, but also frees the world a little more from all the hatred that still consumes itself so greatly…

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson