The Love Of Christ Can Heal Anything

I truly believe that finding Christ’s love within ourselves can heal just about anything. I say this because for almost two years there stood a huge wall between myself and some of my partner’s family. But in recent months, since reconfirming my life with Christ, I have to say that my relationship with them has totally changed for the better.

It honestly seems so frivolous now what initially caused me to erect that huge wall that kept my partner and I from spending time with these family members for so long. And while that incident doesn’t really need to be brought up again, the truth is that since reconfirming my life with Christ, I’ve begun to see everything so differently, especially with what happened back then. This is precisely why I felt my heart move to personally got together with them in recent weeks and make my amends. This is why I’m writing this because since doing so, I have felt Christ’s love pour forth from within me and ease all that tension I had felt with them.

Now my partner and I find ourselves enjoying time with them again. We spent a few hours on Thanksgiving catching up and have had fun on a game night as well. It’s almost as if that entire gap of two years that passed by with relatively little communication between us and them has been totally erased. I’m definitely grateful for this and know the sole reason this has been made possible is the only thing that changed within me these last few months of my life. And that’s the absolute fact that I asked Christ to come back into my life and my heart.

I’m now seeing this same love pass on to other areas of my life lately and am watching the walls I’ve had with others melt away as well. In fact, I find myself not wanting to have any walls remain erected within me anymore because truthfully they just keep me separated from God.

So I just wanted to pass this little bit of cheer along to anyone who may end up reading this, especially during this holiday season. Because I’m thoroughly convinced now that as long as we tap into the love of Christ, that any wall we’ve ever erected between us and another can be removed.

And while I’m sure that my words today may come off as a little too religious for some, this was not my intention at all. It’s just my hope that one day all of us may tap into the love of something greater than ourselves and start removing all of those walls we still have within us. For me that something greater than myself has been Christ as of late, and as we approach Christmas Day, I must say I’m very thankful for knowing my partner and I will be spending some of it with his family this year rather than apart…

Peace, love, light, and joy,

Andrew Arthur Dawson

Another Reason Why Attempting Suicide Is Never The Answer

Someone I really care about told me the other day that if things don’t get better by the time 2016 gets off and running, that they are going to kill themselves. I most certainly could relate to their anguish not only because I knew what they’ve been through over the past year, but also given what I’ve been through myself during the same period of time with my own battles with physical pain. But as much as my ego has often tried to convince me that suicide is the easiest way out to escape all my pain, I’ve come to realize and accept that it’s not. And although on those high pain-filled days it may seem quite tempting, I received an article not too long ago that gave me yet another reason why this is definitely not something I should ever consider.

The article came from my spiritual teacher and was about a woman who had been going through a very long course of mental and emotional pain herself. One day she decided she had enough of it in her life and took 90 pills to end it all. In her mind, she would just drift off to sleep and that would be that. What she never took into light was the fact that maybe (a) it wasn’t her time, and (b) that the attempt wouldn’t work. And when it didn’t and she came to in a hospital bed, things were far worse. On top of all the existing pain she had tried to escape, her body was now a complete mess with a total upheaval of her entire nervous system. She couldn’t talk without feeling like there were marbles in her mouth, she couldn’t move with ease like she could before the attempt, and about the best she could do once she was released from the hospital was empty the dishwasher on any given day. She said that it was as if she was a prisoner in her own body and knew everything that was going on, but was totally unable to function like she once used to. So not only was she far worse than she was prior to her suicide attempt, she now had a very long road to physical recovery as well. Eventually she did recover, many, many, many years later, through an incredible amount of physical and mental therapies. But looking back, she stated that suicide had been by far the worst choice she could have ever made for herself.

Reading that story in all honesty, scared the crap out of me. I can only imagine what might have happened back in 2011 when I actually did attempt suicide myself. If I hadn’t escaped all those carbon monoxide fumes I was subjecting myself too and somehow stayed within them for prolonged exposure and then lived to tell about it, I too might have been left in a far worse condition than I actually have been in the past few years of my life.

So while I may not currently be in the best state of mind and body, especially over the past year of my life, I know that suicide isn’t the answer, not only because I know my Higher Power has a greater plan for me and not only because I know there are many who truly care about me. Now I have another reason to see that attempting suicide could make things incredibly far worse for myself and take even more years away from the good life I know my Higher Power has planned for me. Thank God for my spiritual teacher sending me that article…

Peace, love, light, and joy,

Andrew Arthur Dawson

Do You Normally Gravitate Towards Those You Find Attractive?

Are the people you normally gravitate towards to make a new acquaintance or friendship those you find attractive? If so, do they often turn into great connections or do they never really go anywhere over time?

For me, for far too long, most of the people I’d make an effort trying to connect with were those I indeed found attractive, with most of that behavior stemming from my addiction-like tendencies. Yet in the long run, none of those I sought out in this way ever really worked out that well.

Recently in fact, I had a strong reminder of this with someone I tried to get to know, but this time the result led me to make a decision that I need to start turning this behavior over to God and let God start guiding all new acquaintances and friendships into my life instead.

I say this because most often the outcome of acquaintances and friendships I made due to an initial attraction has been things such as unreturned phone calls, impersonal text messages, constant cancellation of plans, and many other disappointing things.

But yet, for the few people that have come into my life on their own accord over the years, that were ones I didn’t purse because of an initial attraction, each has remained in my life for almost 20 years now. This is why I really feel that maybe it’s time to stop thinking I know who’s best to bring into my life because so far I haven’t had a very good track record.

Truth to be told, I’m going through a lot of changes lately in the acquaintance and friendship department and have been writing about this quite a bit in recent months. I think this unhealthy gravitation towards those I find attractive is just one more piece I’m coming to understand about myself.

What’s interesting though is that I already discovered this in my dating life just over four years ago now. Before I met my current partner, I thought I knew who was best for me to be in a relationship with. Yet each person I found, pursued, and dated always imploded and constantly left me single and wondering why. But when, I finally turned it over to God, in walked my current partner who actually found me instead of the other way around and so far this has been the best relationship I’ve ever had.

Thus, I think there’s really something to all this. I honestly think it’s time to start allowing my Higher Power to bring people into my life who are meant to be my acquaintance or friend. Because in all likelihood, allowing God to do this is most likely going to result in a connection that has far greater longevity and a far healthier foundation than any of my own attempts to forge something that only arose out of me finding someone attractive… J

Peace, love, light, and joy,

Andrew Arthur Dawson