Today’s entry might polarize some or maybe it won’t. But I’m a writer and also a deep thinker and something’s been on my mind as of late that deals with the idea that spiritual contracts are made by us with Source prior to ever entering our life.
Ok, so I’m sure some are probably already turned off by this topic but after all this is a blog and just my own thoughts. Yet it’s something I’ve been dwelling on quite a bit over the past few years, especially given what I’ve been going through with my health.
I know I’ve spoken about this in lesser detail here and there in prior entries, but today I’m going to expand on this a little bit more and I’m going to do it in a strange way that might feel like I’m actually writing a story. But before I start, let me pose a few thought provoking questions.
What if we really do live multiple lives and at the end of each of them, in some place beyond our current limited comprehension, we review the lessons we learned and the ones we didn’t?
And what if we then have the ability to rest for a bit and then prepare for the next life by making agreements with Source that will help us learn the next set of lessons or the ones we hadn’t quite grasped yet?
The following is just some of the dialogue I’ve imagined I’d have with a Higher Being, if there really was truth behind these questions:
“So you’re ready to enter the next life I see Andrew?” says the Higher Being.
“Yes, and this time I want to ensure I will move beyond this place I continue to get stuck in.” I said, knowing I had spent the past five lives repeating the same mistakes of over-indulging, living in debauchery and gluttony, manipulating, cheating, lying, and essentially remaining selfish and self-centered more than not.
“Be gentle with yourself Andrew, you know how difficult it is with those energies on Earth and how easy it is to get caught up in the lower vibrations there.”
“I know, but I don’t want to keep on repeating these same mistakes life after life.”
“So what do you have in mind then Andrew?”
“I’d like to make a contract for myself. I want this next life to have conditions that will predispose me to the same problems I’ve had in prior lives, but much stronger. Strong enough to reach the point where I feel totally broken, where I have no other solution but to call out to God and ask for help. One where I will finally ask God to free me from all of the things that have kept me separate from God. And once I do, I want to feel all the pain as I heal. In other words, I want to experience the pain that came from falling away from God’s grace again and again.”
“That’s quite a tall order Andrew! Are you sure you want to take on something that difficult?”
“Well nothing else has worked so far and I don’t want to have to sit here again, coming up with something even more challenging!” I said with a chuckle.
“You know this isn’t going to be easy Andrew.” The Higher Being said gently.
“I know, but I want to show God how devoted I am to finally learning these lessons. I’m sure that by being willing to go through all that pain I won’t repeat this ever again, not in the rest of this next life or any future life for that matter.”
“Andrew, God already knows how devoted you are. You don’t have to go to this extreme to prove that.”
“I said that the past five lives and look where it got me.”
“Well if anything is going to prevent you from repeating this again, this will, if that’s really what you want.”
“It is.”
“Well then all you need to do is sign here.” The Higher Being said pulling out a sheet of paper with what I was agreeing to.
“I know this is going to work this time.” I said out loud to myself as I signed it.
“Andrew, I’m sure it will. And when you reach the other side of it, just think of how many souls you will be able to help find their way to the Light…”
“A beacon of hope…” I said as I walked out of the room looking forward to the next life.
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson