Grateful Heart Monday

Welcome to another official Grateful Heart Monday, where gratitude begins each week, which for today is for being the “chip” guy in my home group for the majority of the past four years.

For those who aren’t in the rooms of recovery from addiction, the “chip guy” is the person who hands out these colorful plastic sobriety tokens to those receiving one of those all too important early milestones that fall under a year. In most groups I’ve been a part of over the years, the first and most important sobriety token is a silver one representing 24 hours to 29 days, someone who may be just starting their journey out in sobriety or recommitting to it. Following that typically are chips for 1 month, 2 months, 3 months, 6 months, and finally 9 months. In my current home group though, we actually are one of the few that honors every single month up to and including 11 months.

With that being said, it’s truly been my honor and pleasure to being the chip person for almost the entire time I’ve been a member of my home group. I’ve always found it to be so rewarding and done my best to doing this task with gusto, letting people know there is no shame in even picking up the 24-hour token, as even one day of sobriety deserves to be honored when it comes to getting free from addiction.

What’s also quite rewarding for me being the chip guy has been to offer a hug to any who receive one of the sobriety tokens. For most, it’s been received well, as feeling loved is something many addicts don’t ever get to experience, especially when deep into their disease. Thus, offering a huge hug and a “Congratulations, I’m so proud of you!” or “Great job, keep coming back!” has usually been met with a very warm and heart-felt response.

Something I also picked up over the years and have felt pretty grateful for when doing the chip job is honor all those attending the meeting who may have celebrated a milestone greater than a year in the past few weeks. Allowing someone to share their number of years sober they recently celebrated not only helps newcomers to see the program works, but also helps to lift the spirit of the person themselves sharing their milestone, especially as the rest of the room erupts in applause in support of their achievement.

Last, but not least, is something I hold very dear to my heart from my days in the rooms of recovery back in Massachusetts. There, I learned to always end the chip duty with the following “If you haven’t had a drink today, give yourself and your Higher Power a hand!” Traditionally, I always feel so good joining in the applause with others after saying that, knowing I’ve made it with them, another day clean and sober from a disease that at one point had wrecked both my life and theirs too.

Thus, I’m truly grateful for my home group allowing me to continue being the chip guy, as it really has been quite rewarding on so many levels, especially in seeing a spark of hope each time I give someone one of those colorful plastic tokens of sober love, as each is a reminder to be proud of the achievement and to keep going…for one more day at a time.

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

Grateful Heart Monday

Welcome to another Grateful Heart Monday, a day always set aside on my blog to reflect upon a single piece of gratitude from my life, which for today is for a movie I saw recently in the theater titled “Waves”, that was both a great reminder of how far I’ve come in my own recovery from alcohol and drug addiction, and also one that showed just bad things could have gotten if I hadn’t become sober when I did.

“Waves” is predominantly a movie about an African-American teenager named Tyler (played by Kelvin Harrison Jr.) who comes from a middle to upper class family where serious pressure and control from his father Ronald (played by Sterling K. Brown) happens to him more than not. Because of that pressure and feeling he constantly needs to prove himself to his Dad, Tyler resorts to using painkillers and alcohol simply as a temporary solution to cope, especially when things really begin spiral out of control for him in a number of areas of his life, including him seriously injuring his shoulder in a wrestling match, his girlfriend getting pregnant, and his girlfriend also choosing to leave him. And the more Tyler’s life spirals out of control, the more he makes one bad decision after another, until eventually the worst thing that could happen to him actually does.

I know this pattern well, as I too was on the very same road back in early 1995. But thankfully, my pain eventually became great enough to actually do something about it and when I did, I clearly began to see for the first time that the path I was heading on with addiction would have led me directly to either jail or death. So, watching Tyler’s disease continue to play itself out far beyond where mine went, really saddened my heart, because the terrible consequences of his life all stemmed from his untreated addiction and state of mind. In the end, seeing Tyler engage in such self-destructive behaviors that were made even worse any time he drank or drugged, helped me see just how much I should be grateful for what I have and for how far I’ve come on my own road to recovery from addiction.

Unfortunately, I can’t say the same for the many other friends and loved ones who have completely ruined their lives solely because of their continued alcohol and drug consumption, my parents being included in that. Over the years, I’ve watched so many active alcoholics and addicts experience major financial setbacks, seen countless of their friendships and partnerships end, and their jobs be terminated. Sad to say, but I’ve also seen even worse consequences than this as well. Thankfully I don’t have to worry about any of that anymore though and instead was able to find such a great appreciation for this film.

Without spoiling anymore of “Waves” plot, I just want to say how very grateful I am to God for this movie. As through it, I clearly see how I was just like Tyler many eons ago, when ego still totally ruled my existence because of all that active addiction and inner turmoil within me. The fact is, the last thing I want to do these days is drink or drug, because I know I can always dig a deeper hole, pit, or grave if I do, something that Tyler never realized until it was too late and something I’m so very thankful I’ve never had to experience.

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

Question Of The Day

Today’s question is…

What is your most favorite restaurant in the world and why?

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson


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