Grateful Heart Monday

Welcome to another Grateful Heart Monday, where I begin my week writing about a piece of gratitude to begin things on a positive note, which for today is for a place I volunteer at weekly that’s called Rescue Crisis.

Several years ago, when I first came to Toledo, I quickly decided to get active in the AA service community here by joining the Hospital Committee, where I ventured out weekly to various hospitals, halfway houses, detox centers, and the like, with the main purpose of coordinating AA meetings, usually for those in crisis or just starting their path to recovery from addiction.

One of my earliest commitments with the Hospital Committee was at a place called Rescue Crisis, which is where people who are dealing with addiction issues and mental imbalances come for up to two weeks for treatment and help. As part of their weekly program, a recovery meeting is held at Rescue Crisis every Wednesday night at 6pm in the conference room on the first floor.

When I initially took this commitment, I soon learned that I’d often be doing more sharing than the clients would, as most of them aren’t normally in a place to open up and talk about what they’re going through. In other words, it was up to me to share my AA story in a way that would provide them experience, strength, and hope. As time went on, I found my groove and continued to be a mainstay at Rescue Crisis week in and week out, developing my first piece of gratitude along the way, that being for Jewel, who is the staff member that has always brought the clients to the meetings I help coordinate.

Jewel has always consistency supported my efforts to help others there, has frequently uplifted me when I’ve been down, even given me special treats during the holidays, and unconditionally loved and accepted me for who I am. On some level, she’s a big reason why I never ended my commitment at Rescue Crisis and kept coming back, even when I was supposed to roll off onto another commitment for the Hospital Committee.

You see, as part of the rules of being on the AA Hospital Committee, one is supposed to step down after two years of service with them. After that time frame came and went, I met with the main coordinator of the Rescue Crisis program and let them know the situation, given how much of a good repour and relationship I had established there. I offered to volunteer directly to them and make myself available on a weekly basis because of how much I enjoyed supporting their clients. Shortly thereafter, they decided to part ways with the Hospital Committee and opted to have me be the sole coordinator from the AA community, which I was immensely grateful for.

In the past year, my biggest reward and piece of gratitude from volunteering at Rescue Crisis came when I was asked by a University of Toledo nursing instructor if I’d be open to helping provide recovery education on a quarterly basis to her students. Of course, I was much obliged to do so and through that avenue, I met one of those students named Kaisey, who asked me just over a month ago now, if I’d be open to speaking to the Greek students at her school, which has always been a hope of mine to do one day, given I am a Phi Kappa Psi brother from long ago at Rochester Institute of Technology.

I’m now well into my fourth year of working with Rescue Crisis and continue to find great reward on a weekly basis conducting recovery meetings there. While there have been some challenges at times with clients who are angry and refuse to look at their addiction or mental health issues, there have been far more clients I’ve been able to make a positive connection with and as a result, seen sparks of hope come alive within a number of them, which in turn has helped me to remain sober.

Given the struggles I still face with my health day after day, and how my ego often tempts me to go back to alcohol or drugs to comfort my pain levels, it is much in part due to the meetings I continue to hold at this volunteer position, the friendship I’ve made with Jewel there, and a blossoming connection to Kaisey, her sorority Kappa Delta, and the Greek Life at the University of Toledo, that has helped me to keep going, to remain sober, and to keep believing I’m still serving a purpose for God, all of which makes for plenty of reasons to be grateful for what Rescue Crisis has done for my life…

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

Grateful Heart Monday

Welcome to another entry of Grateful Heart Monday, where I start my week off on a positive note with a piece of gratitude, which for today is for a recent day trip I took to Cedar Point with my partner and a few friends.

For those who don’t know, Cedar Point is an amusement park in Sandusky, Ohio, that’s considered to be one of the supreme places for riding roller coasters in the world, given there are 17 of them there. Many years ago, prior to when all my health issues began, I was an incredible roller coaster enthusiast who always tried to visit a slew of amusement parks every season. That all changed in the spring of 2010 though when my physical health began to decline. When I attempted in July of 2010 to spend a day at Six Flags Antonio with my best friend Cedric and struggled to enjoy any of the coasters I went on, I decided to temporarily shelve my amusement park days until I got better. Eight years later and many declined opportunities to go with others to various theme parks, I finally opted to join a friend and his family in their final visit to Cedar Point for the year, solely because their kids had asked if my partner and I would do the haunted houses with them that go on during the September and October time frame there.

Leading up to our late October Saturday visit, I must admit that I secretly had hoped something would happen to cancel the trip like severe weather or something else. I wasn’t too excited to go mostly because the levels of pain I’ve been enduring have made walking for any length of time not much fun.

Yet, I experienced my first piece of gratitude very quickly upon arrival at the park, when my friends let me know they had a handicap access placard so that I didn’t have to walk a big distance from the parking lot to the gate.

Shortly thereafter, upon entering the park, a second piece of gratitude came when guest services granted me a special access pass that allowed all of us to board the rides at the handicap entrances, where I wouldn’t have to wait in any of the 2+ hour long queues, as having to stand for long periods is extremely challenging for me.

Having that special access pass also proved to be a blessing given it allowed me to make it on a number of roller coasters I never experienced before, all before the high winds and rains came in later in the day that ended up shutting everything down.

And when they did, when everyone began to head indoors where it was dry and warm, my partner stood in line for a good while at the Starbucks (yes, the park actually has a Starbucks!), to get me my favorite drink, an extra hot venti decaf soy latte. Each sip of which definitely brought me a token of gratitude, especially, as the line grew longer and longer and was almost an hour at one point to order something there!

But, if there was one thing that made me the most grateful overall that day, it was the fact that I hadn’t cancelled my trip to Cedar Point and I never gave up while I was there, even when my pain was hurting incredibly. The truth is, I gave it my all the entire time, so much so, that I ended up accumulating over 5 miles of walking, which for me in my current state has been something I never thought possible.

So, for a guy like me, who has been spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically broken more than not these days, I feel I actually accomplished quite a triumph on my first trip to an amusement park in over 8 years. While it did take a physical toll on me in the end, especially because of the roughness of the rides, I can at least be thankful for the good that came out of it and the notion that I once again defied the odds and my ego. And I’m truly grateful for my friends Clark and Shannon, as well as their kids, for helping to make it all possible, something I never thought would be, given all that I continue to go through with my health…

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

Grateful Heart Monday

Welcome to another chapter of Grateful Heart Monday, where I begin each week with a piece of gratitude, which for today is for something that might sound a little odd, given it’s for my Toyota Camry Hybrid.

I own a 2007 Toyota Camry Hybrid and while I never named my vehicle, it truly has been something special to me and has been a blessing many times over. I currently have over 230,000 miles on it and am also its original owner, having driven it off the lot back in December of 2006 with a mere 10 miles on it.

Why I’m filled with gratitude for my car though is for a number of reasons, which I decided to numerically list the top ten:

  1. It helped me commute from Boston, MA to Chincoteague, VA (where the bed and breakfast I used to own was) countless times.
  2. It helped me commute from Boston, MA to Toledo, OH for two entire years while I was dating my partner long distance.
  3. It has kept me safe and helped me narrowly avoid a number of accidents over the years, and even protected me immensely when I actually did have a significant accident in 2012.
  4. It has been a great haven for me to vent and scream at the top of my lungs over my frustration with my health issues.
  5. It has been an extremely reliable vehicle with relatively low maintenance issues.
  6. It has been my “recovery shuttle”, given it’s been the only vehicle I’ve used to get me to all my recovery meetings ever since coming to Alcoholics Anonymous in 2007.
  7. Its license plates have been great talking points and motivations for a good number of people’s spiritual lives. (I’ve used “23RDPSM”, “BEURSLF”, and “DNTJDGE” over the years in case you’re wondering!)
  8. It has taken me on a number of long-distance vacations and helped me to go visit plenty of beautiful people, places, and things that I will cherish forever.
  9. It has maintained amazing gas mileage, even after all these years, as I tend to still average at least 35 miles to the gallon with every full tank.
  10. It’s been the home of much of my 11thStep life of prayer and meditation and mantra recitation.

So, as you can see, this vehicle has brought me a multitude of gratitude and remains very dear to my heart, given how integral it’s been to my life. Ultimately, I give all the credit to God though, as I feel it was God who was the One to lead me to actually purchasing it so long ago now, as I originally had my sights set on a much flashier automobile. Nevertheless, I truly have a lot to be grateful for when it comes to my 2007 Toyota Camry Hybrid and I feel blessed for it to have been a part of my life for as long as it has…

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson