Sometimes I find spiritual lessons being taught to me in weird ways and I’ve learned they will generally repeat themselves when I’m not paying attention. The latest of which seems to have come my way via the online availability of my blog on the Internet.
I actually use GoDaddy to host my blog and for the most part, things have been relatively smooth sailing with them. But in recent months, my site has been down a handful of times, all occurring mostly on or around midnight. The only reason why I know this is that each of my entries are scheduled to post at 12:01am every day and usually I check shortly after that time to ensure they do. But several months ago, a posting didn’t occur as regularly scheduled, which led to an immediate phone call to GoDaddy for help. Unfortunately, that call turned into a several hour-long ordeal and a statement of the obvious, that there were some technical issues beyond my control. Why it took so long for me to reach that point in conversation with them was completely due to my own frustration of why my site was down. I must have asked them dozens of questions and tried about the same number of times to get my site to come back up on my own, all to no avail. In the long run, I threw my hands up in the air, went to bed, and awoke later that morning to find everything back to normal with my site.
Normally I wouldn’t think about any spiritual lesson coming from such an isolated incident as this. But when it began to repeat itself every couple of weeks to varying degrees why my site was either down or not functioning correctly, I started to pay more attention. That’s when I discovered that although the problems were always slightly different, I would consistently react the same when they occurred. With each, I’d make a long phone call to GoDaddy for at least 2+ hours and increase my stress and anxiety by doing everything I could to figure the problem out all on my own. None of it ever helped and the ending was always the same with my site being back up and running just fine by the time I awoke later each morning. The last occurrence of this was actually only last week, which caused the light bulb to finally click on above my head.
Maybe the Universe was trying to tell me to I needed to let go and trust more in life. And once I realized this, I wondered if this was also the answer to a prayer I’ve been saying for quite awhile now over the state of my health and healing. The last four months or so have been the hardest to endure in regards to this, which has often led me to pray for greater guidance and direction on what more I can do, given I’ve done so much already. While the answers to my prayers never seem to come in the way I want, I think in this case they came in a way that was known would get my attention. And it definitely did.
For every situation when my site was broken, down, or malfunctioning in some way, none of my actions in the wee hours of each of those mornings ever did any good. Essentially, they only stressed me out even more, especially because each of my site’s problems consistently resolved themselves all on their own, in their own time. So what if all of these downed blog situations were actually the answer to my ongoing prayers with my health and healing? What if I’m meant to just let go and trust that I’m doing enough? What if there truly is no other action I can do for my health at this point in time other than be patient with my Higher Power and myself.
My spiritual teacher is convinced I’ve received my answer and my gut is telling me the same. So I think the next time I discover my site is down or having problems late at night, I’m just going to turn my computer off, head to bed, and have faith it’s being taken care of. As for my health and healing, I’m going to do the same as well by trusting I’m doing enough to fully heal and that it will happen when it’s meant to.
Thank you Universe for another spiritual lesson learned, all through something as simple as a downed blog…
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson