“My worst day clean and sober is far better than my best day using…”
If you’ve ever been to any type of a 12-Step meeting, then I’m sure you’ve probably heard some version of this quote before. In my case, I’ve listened to countless people over the years share something quite similar and have to agree wholeheartedly with the statement every time I hear it.
While life in the addiction realm had plenty of moments where I felt good, there was always a cost to it, even on any of those days that I deemed to be one of the best I ever had. The toll it took on my mind, body, and soul in the long run has been staggering and in turn, the journey back to a state of wholeness and oneness with God has been long and arduous. Yet, I’m truly grateful for the sobriety and recovery I have now because at least I know I’m no longer causing any more damage to myself.
Sure, I’ve had plenty of days where depression and pain have wreaked havoc on me, but at the end of each I always express my gratitude to God for another day clean and sober. Because every day I stay on this path is one more day I draw closer to my Higher Power. That’s a stark contrast to all the days I lived in my addiction-fueled realm where I actually drew farther and farther away from my Higher Power the more I engaged in any of them.
So this is why I too must agree that even on any of my worst pain-filled days as of late where I’ve questioned my sanity and my faith in God has felt like it’s being tested, I’d gladly still experience any of them, instead of one of those I might have deemed to be the best in my addiction-fueled days.
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson