If there’s one thing I know, it’s that I don’t think I’m better than anyone else, nor do I think I’m morally superior to anyone either. Yet, those are the very accusations that have occasionally been said of me, some to my face, and some behind my back. What is true though is that I do feel far more humbled in life with what’s taken place over the past eight and half years.
Sadly, there was a time though where I used to allow my ego to make me believe I was better than others and morally superior, even knowing deep down I truly wasn’t. But, now I feel like I’m on the exact opposite side of the spectrum due to the many knock-downs and knock-outs I’ve had to endure ranging from financial failure, to an inability to work, to my many health issues, and a number of other things as well.
Life has truly humbled me, yet there are still people out there who feel I place myself above others. Frankly, I’m amazed at that because in recent years, I’ve felt more worthless in this world than anything else, which I’ve talked about a number of times in some of my other blog articles.
Nevertheless, while I may not participate in a number of things that the rest of society does with regularity, that doesn’t make me better than someone else or morally superior. It simply is me following my own inner guidance and doing my best to continue beating to my own spiritual drum, even when the masses try to often convince me to do otherwise. Look, I don’t expect anyone will ever fully understand me, as much as I’m just as sure that no matter what I say or do, I’ll continue to be misinterpreted, especially here in my daily musings.
In all honesty, my only reality I have right now is to keep on surviving in a world that feels totally out of control to me, to keep on surviving the health issues that still plague me within, and to have faith that there is a Higher Power who will guide me through it all. And while my deepest truth is that I don’t feel like I measure up in this world these days and feel as if I have nothing to offer anyone anymore, I am very thankful I don’t allow my ego to try to convince me otherwise like it used to.
So, please, if you ever find yourself at some point judging another to be acting better than you or morally superior, I encourage you to take a moment, breathe, and realize it may be quite far from the real truth. The filters you are looking through in your accusation could be biased from what’s actually reality, as it truly is in my case, where humility has become my only existence…
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson
