Some Random Thoughts On The Orlando Mass Shooting

Another shooting. More rampage. This time the death toll being the highest ever recorded in the United States. What’s it going to take to prevent this from happening over and over again like it has been in recent years? And when are people going to wake up and realize there’s a serious problem going on?

Reporters and various “people of knowledge” continue to state there isn’t any increasing trend to these mass shootings, but I honestly don’t believe that. It seems like every week now there is someone, somewhere, picking up a gun and going on a school campus, or in a mall, or at some business, or in this case a nightclub in Orlando and opening fire, killing innocent people.

This time fifty people had to die for no reason, all in the walls of The Pulse nightclub and all for what? Because no one knows what to do to prevent this from happening?

There’s a growing amount of spiritual sickness happening in our country. People are turning away from having any type of Higher Power and instead looking to technology, science, medicine, and various addictions for that. And the more people disengage from the world into any of those things, the more they seem to become susceptible to darkness and darkness-based behaviors that range from domestic violence, burglary, sexual crimes, and even things as extreme as mass shootings. I know that many believe that gun control is the answer for all this. But I don’t, because that’s something that happens after the fact. In other words, it’s not getting to the source of where it’s all starting.

Take this family I saw at the Cheesecake Factory about a week ago who were out for an afternoon meal. While there, the parents spent the entire time engrossed in their social media on their phones, while their kids played games on their own as well. And many of those games were just glorifying violence all the more. When I was a kid, there wasn’t any of this going on at meals. I was forced to interact with others at a dinner table or at social engagements. And I learned through this a few lessons here and there about loving and respecting others. But people don’t seem to care about that as much anymore or about anyone else except themselves these days. And the more they keep on living in this way, the more they are only going to make themselves susceptible to living more in darkness.

The last thing I could ever imagine myself doing nowadays is shooting someone and taking their life-force away. But I must say that in my worst moments in life, when I was deep into the craziest of my addictions, I had many thoughts about wanting certain people to die and even at one point, I almost pushed someone I loved down the stairs in a fit of rage, all because I had almost totally fallen away from seeking a Higher Power and living with unconditional love in my heart.

So while it may appear to be a stupid thing to others who read this, I still hold fast to my belief that the problem with this growing mass violence is due to an increasing spiritual sickness and lack of love going on between all of us. And while people may say this person had some type of allegiance to a terrorist group, the real question is not why, but how they ended up there in the first place. Were they raised with a lack of love and kindness to all human beings. Or were they raised with hatred instead.

The answer is with us people. We must begin to love everyone no matter what, unconditionally, even when our brains say certain people or types of people don’t deserve it. Maybe if we all started working on that, people wouldn’t be sliding through the cracks as much and falling away from God. And maybe then, we might start seeing a decrease in these mass shootings, once and for all…

Peace, love, light, and joy,

Andrew Arthur Dawson

“Me Before You”, “A Tear-Jerker Film That Hit Close To Home

I saw a movie today that made me cry so hard. It was about a middle-aged man who was living a pretty great life until he experienced a tragic event that changed everything for him. It was called “Me Before You” and much of it reminded me of what I’ve been going through myself in recent years.

The film begins with an extremely good-looking man named Will Traynor (played by Sam Claflin) who is just starting his day in a very upbeat way. It’s apparent how good his life is by his home surroundings, his attractive girlfriend, and even the clothes he puts on to go to work. But suddenly his playboy life changes in the blink of an eye when he’s hit by a motorcycle during a heavy downpour heading on foot to work and becomes a paraplegic.

The story picks up two years later with his family looking to hire someone to help keep him company, as he has been more despondent than not with anyone or anything ever since his tragic accident. Enter Lou Clark (played by Emilia Clarke), a quirky young woman just looking for a job after a recent layoff at the diner she worked at. With her family pressuring her to help support the household by a currently laid off father, she’s willing to take anything in a town where jobs are scarce. So when an opportunity arises to be a caregiver for the local very-wealthy Traynor family, she jumps at the chance, but assumes it’s probably for an elder man. Little does she know that it’s for Will or that his mother has an ulterior motive behind the person they’re looking to hire. Will has signed a right-to-die contract for a euthanasia in Switzerland, but promised his parents he’d give his life six more months before making the final decision. His mother secretly hopes that the woman they hire, that being Lou, will somehow change his mind and give him a reason to go on living during that time.

While I know I’m not paralyzed nor confined to a wheelchair like Will was in the movie, I could relate to all the pain and anguish he went through day after day after day, trying to cope with a life he never wanted or ever imagined he’d be living.

Not too long ago, I was living a similar life to Will’s, except for one thing. I couldn’t seem to free myself from falling into one addiction after another. So in a humble-moment one afternoon, after falling prey to yet another time of toxic behavior, I got on my knees and asked God to bring me through whatever I needed to go through to be free from all the addictions, toxins, impurities, and energies that kept me from being the person God wanted me to be in this life. In that moment, I truly was open and willing and ready to go through whatever I needed to, to make that happen. Little did I know though that my life would change dramatically not too long after that prayer, as I would become plagued with many different pains and ailments.

And similar to what Will experienced in the movie, there has been no amount of medications, loving company, holistic healing, volunteering, or the like that has been able to truly bring a consistent smile to my face or warmth to my soul. Yet, years later, there is one thing that has sustained me from giving up like Will wanted to in the film. It’s God and I have remained faithful to God even on many days when the pain has been so great I’ve wanted to curl up in a ball and die. Why? Because I believe God has a plan for me that’s not meant to end with this.

But I must admit that sometimes I think if euthanasia did exist here in our country, I might have already gone down that path myself on days when it’s harder to exist than not. But yet, I don’t believe that’s the path I’m meant to take. I don’t believe that God has allowed me to go through all this, just to end up being taken care of by someone else for the rest of my life. I also don’t believe that God’s plans for me involve being medicated and numb just to keep going. So I wait with hope and I have joy in that hope, joy that one day soon things will be far better for me and that’s where my path diverted from that of Will’s in the movie.

Without God, I think I’d probably already be dead by now given what I’ve gone through all these years. But I must say, seeing this movie truly was like seeing a snippet out of my own life and all the difficulties I go through just to make it through a single day.

Nevertheless, “Me Before You” was a strong tear-jerker film that truly did hit very close to home. While I’m grateful I’m not paralyzed and confined to a wheelchair, I related so much to Will Traynor’s struggles throughout the entire movie. Living with intense pain or any serious handicap is not easy, especially when others don’t know how it feels because they’ve never gone through it themselves. So I encourage all of you to be thankful for what you have, especially if you’re not currently suffering with any serious handicap or daily pain, because there are people out there just like Will and myself who do and who have uphill battles to face with each living breath. But if you do struggle like Will or myself, know you’re not alone and know there is one who can sustain you through it all, and that’s God, for I’m living proof that even in the darkness, there is light…

Peace, love, light, and joy,

Andrew Arthur Dawson