Having trust in others has always been a hard thing for me to do. Initially, that stemmed from the abandonment issues I had with my parents, the fact that I was molested at such a young age, and many people throughout the years I drew in close to me who I allowed to use me in some way. While I’ve worked through all those past issues extensively, lately I’ve been seeing I still have some trust issues left to work through, most specifically with my partner and with my Higher Power (whom I refer to as God).
With my partner, my trust has been shaken ever since his infidelity last October.
With God, my trust has been shaken for the past few years given all the health issues I’ve been enduring.
Each of these trust issues undermine my ability to become healthier in both my relationship with my partner and also with God. For this reason, I decided to write a prayer today to help myself move beyond this.
“Dear God, I am tired of struggling with trust issues throughout my life. I know they hold me back on some level from healing, growing, and becoming the spiritual person I want to become. If there is any part of me God that has not forgiven anyone or anything, including You, for any area where I thought that my trust was broken, I send love, forgiveness, and peace out to every one of them now. Help me God to trust again in my partner, in You, in my health and healing, and all those You may put into my life for any reason that are part of my spiritual growth. I want to be fully trusting with each of them, especially with myself and the health and healing taking place within me. Please restore that fully God so that I may become a being filled with a much greater capacity for love and light. Amen.”
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson