“Before I Fall”, A Heartfelt Teenage Groundhog Day Film With Its Own Uniqueness

Ever since the movie Groundhog Day (starring Bill Murray) was released back in 1993, there’s been a slew of other movies and television programing that have followed in its footsteps. While I’ve seen most of them and feel none have ever surpassed the uniqueness of the original, one such film recently challenged that opinion, that being “Before I Fall.”

I should probably explain the premise of Groundhog Day first before I go any further though. To put it simply, it’s about a newsman who hates reporting the events of Groundhog Day each year in Punxsutawney, PA, until during one of them, he falls into a time loop and proceeds to wake up over and over again, on the same morning of the holiday he so despises, all till he learns how to become a more unconditionally loving person in life. “Before I Fall” doesn’t stray much from that overarching concept, although it’s more of a young adult drama than an all-around comedy like Groundhog Day is.

Nevertheless, “Before I Fall” centers around the life of Samantha Kingston (Zoey Deutch). Young, pretty, well-off, and soon to be graduating from high school, Samantha spends most of her time with three other teenage girls, all of a similar caliber. One could easily be reminded of a similar group of teenagers from the movie Mean Girls when watching them together on screen. Arrogant, stuck up, and focused solely on their own needs, wants, and desires in life, Samantha, Lindsay (Halston Sage), Ally (Cynthy Wu), and Elody (Medalion Rahimi) seem to only care about how they look, what guys they might be able to sleep with, and what parties are happening. This becomes overly apparent from the onset with Samantha when she wakes up to her phone’s alarm and is more interested in a text from a guy who doesn’t really care about her, instead of the piece of origami left on her bed by her little sister Izzy (Erica Tremblay) as a present. It becomes even more apparent a little later as she heads off to school when Izzy chases after her with the gloves she usually wears, hoping for a hug in the process, only to be yelled at by Samantha for touching her things. Later in school, Samantha continues to remain self-absorbed by joining in with her friend’s while they make fun of the one girl in school who stands out the most, that being Juliet Sykes (Elena Kampouris). Her streak of self-centeredness then heads into the night when the four attend a party held by Kent McFuller (Logan Miller), a guy who’s totally smitten with Samantha, who in turn wants nothing to do with him because he doesn’t quite fit her mold of what “cool” is. As the four girls proceed to get drunk, gossip, and eventually terrorize Juliet when she shows up at the party, a catfight ensues, causing them to instantly lose their buzzes and make the decision to head home. Unfortunately, Lindsay doesn’t pay much attention to the road while driving on the rain-soaked evening, focusing more on what music to play, when suddenly she hits something, causing her car to flip and potentially their deaths. But then Samantha’s alarm abruptly goes off on her phone, waking her up once again, playing the very same song that began her day yesterday. So, as the day begins to repeat a second time, Samantha is then thrust into the Groundhog Day premise, where she becomes the only one who knows the day keeps repeating, thus descending her into total confusion, frustration, and eventual hopelessness, and leaving her to ponder her life, her importance in the world, and who she ultimately wants to be.

“Before I Fall” has a number of twists and turns that Groundhog Day doesn’t and treads into somewhat new territory, choosing to deal with the serious-side of things versus comedy in the repeating-day concept. As I watched the film, I found myself truly connecting to Samantha’s angst more so than I did Bill Murray’s. Over the past seven years, while my days may have been moving forward chronologically, I’ve often felt as if I’ve still been reliving the same type of day over and over again, waking up each morning in incredible pain, and doing my best to get through it. Yet it’s all those pain-filled days that have also motivated me to question my existence, to question who I am, and to question who I truly want to be. It’s because of this I began to make serious changes in my life to become a more selfless and unconditionally loving type of being, as compared to the initial Samantha type personality I held for so many years. The person I am today is definitely not the same person I was seven years ago by any means, which is precisely why I connected so deeply and in tears to Samantha’s story. Watching her slowly wake up to the realization that she didn’t like who she was and seeing her find the motivation to become a better person in life, as each day repeated itself, really hit home with me.

Overall, “Before I Fall” truly stands apart from Groundhog Day, especially the ending, of which I won’t spoil of course. But if you truly like the repeating-day to learn life lessons concept, I highly recommend you check out this movie. While it may indeed not be totally fresh in its premise, it does hold enough originality and uniqueness to draw people in, like it did for me, which is why I give it 4 out of 5 stars.

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

Don’t Give Up Before The Miracle Happens!

I’m not really a sport fan these days nor I don’t regularly follow any type of professional team, yet I still watch the Superbowl every year like I did just over a week ago when the New England Patriots played the Atlanta Falcons for the NFL championship. And while most people I knew were rooting against the team I was cheering for, that being the Patriots, something interesting happened with that game that I felt was an extremely invaluable reminder for myself and that’s to not give up before the miracle happens.

Whether you’re a fan of football or not, it’s actually a pretty impressive feat to come back from a 25-point deficit with only a quarter of a game to go. Personally, when half time came during Superbowl 51, I had already given up on my team having any chance of winning and chose to sulk out in my kitchen. Because unfortunately, that’s been a bad habit of mine over the years, to give up on something before the miracle ever has a chance to happen.

So, when the Patriots came storming back with one touchdown after another and tied the game with relatively no time left on the clock in the 4th quarter, I was relatively stunned. Not only because no team has ever come back from that large of a deficit in Superbowl history, but also because the Patriots have never overcome that large of a deficit in any regular season game either. Given those stats, I simply gave up on them and assumed they were going to lose, and badly at that. Yet, that didn’t happen. They did come back, with a vengeance at that, and forced an overtime, which is something that’s never happened in any prior Superbowl. And when they scored the first touchdown to win the championship, achieving a feat I hadn’t thought possible, it symbolized something I’ve long strived for.

You see, the path I’ve been on over the past six years has been a rough and bumpy one, ladled with plenty of spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical struggles, sometimes more than I could have ever imagined I’d bear in life. So many times, I’ve wanted to give up, to check out, and assume that God won’t and/or never planned on delivering me out of this. Yet, watching the New England Patriots beat the odds, the statistics, and really any of their own self-defeating thoughts they might have had with a 25-point deficit to win the championship reminded me that miracles do happen, especially when you don’t give up.

That’s why I’m thankful the game ended as it did, because I needed the strong reminder to help me to keep going in my own life and overcome an ego that has so often wanted me to give up. And while I’m not sure what actually drove the Patriots to make such a huge comeback instead of giving up, I know for myself when the odds have been stacked against me like it was with them in the game, that there’s only one thing that’s ever helped me to overcome any deficit and that’s my faith in God. So, God willing, I plan on beating the odds in my own life and am not going to give up, because I truly do want to see the miracle happen, even if no one else seems to believe it ever will…

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson

“A Dog’s Purpose”, A Moving Film That Addresses The Notion Of Reincarnation

There are plenty of times newly released films end up garnering negative attention. And even though “A Dog’s Purpose” was one of those, mostly due to some leaked footage that showed inhumane treatment of a canine used during filming, I still found myself deeply moved by a movie that addressed the notion of a spiritual principle I’ve only recently come to believe exists.

“A Dog’s Purpose” surrounds a dog named Bailey (voiced by Josh Gad) who enters the world as a very loving, playful, and curious golden retriever. When he’s rescued unexpectedly from an extremely overheating truck by a boy named Ethan (Bryce Gheisar), the two immediately bond. Soon, they’re inseparable and on some level, Bailey becomes the escape Ethan needs from a father who’s rather distant, overly stern, and a budding alcoholic. As Ethan ages and becomes a star high school quarterback (KJ Apa), his connection to Bailey grows even deeper, as Bailey always seems to know exactly what Ethan needs when he most needs it. Upon one of those many moments, Bailey abruptly introduces him to Hannah (Britt Robertson) at a carnival where the two quickly become quite smitten with each other and start planning dreams of a future with the three of them together. Unfortunately, when a freak accident shatters those dreams for Ethan, everything starts falling apart in his world. Angry and frustrated with his new reality, he ends his relationship to Hannah and reluctantly heads off to farmer college alone, leaving Bailey behind with his mother. Feeling abandoned and without purpose anymore, Bailey eventually succumbs to illness. As his life comes to a close and his eyes apparently shut for one final time, he suddenly reopens them only to find himself in a new body and with new purpose. Thus beginning a cycle of lives that leaves the viewer wondering, will Bailey be reunited one day to the person he first loved, that being Ethan?

This concept of reincarnation that “A Dog’s Purpose” proposes, is something you won’t find many Christians ever talking about. For most, life is a one and done type of deal and how their life is lived determines whether heaven or hell is their final destination. But what if life was more than this, for both humans and animals alike? It’s a hard concept to swallow I know, especially with a Christian-dominant country like the United States. And while I may consider myself a Christian, I also hold some devout Buddhist beliefs as well and have only recently begun to accept the possibility that I may have already lived a great number of lives prior to this. And like Bailey, who came in and initially had one purpose, to unconditionally love his first master Ethan, I too feel I was brought here with my own set of purposes for my own Master, that being God.  Unfortunately, I got sidetracked for a while here in this life due to a number of circumstances. But somewhere along the way I started to wake up and began feeling like I’ve been down this path before with a similar set of purposes, some that I never fulfilled. Watching “A Dog’s Purpose” resonated with much of these spiritual principles and truly left me wondering, maybe we really do come back life after life with varying sets of purposes to complete. Regardless of whatever inherent truths exist in this question, I have a difficult time now believing that life is a one and done type of deal like I once used to.

Nevertheless, “A Dog’s Purpose” is a moving film that does address the notion of reincarnation. And while that may have been its initial downfall in why it hasn’t been well received by critics and movie-goers alike, I still give this film 5 stars and highly recommend seeing it for those who continue to feel like there might be something more to God, than what’s presented in the Bible.

Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson