What would you do differently if you became famous? This is a question I have often asked myself and it’s one that I fully believe will always be dependent on the state of my spiritual condition.
My spiritual condition has definitely changed greatly over the past few years. But it wasn’t that long ago when I was spending the majority of my nights and days becoming consumed in one addiction after another. If somehow I had become famous during any of those years, the likelihood of me either overdosing on something, entering a rehab of some sort, or being splashed all over every single tabloid for some drama of the week would probably be pretty strong. While there were moments here and there during those years of genuine acts of selflessness and unconditional love, I was usually more interested in self-glorification and gratification then anything else. So being put in the spotlight for the rest of the world to see back then would have only enhanced my acts of selfishness and self-centeredness.
Prior to when those years of being consumed with self began, I was an innocent kid who had good ideals and a wide-open heart. Unfortunately, I was also deeply insecure and very lonely at the time due to the dysfunctionality I was growing up with around me. Being thrust in the spotlight and becoming famous at that point in my life might have initially felt great and started with me trying to spread those good ideals. But the probability is that it wouldn’t have lasted because I was too dependent upon others and constantly worried about what everyone else thought of me. The end result would have been no different than what actually happened in my real life, as I would have found one addiction after another to numb that insecurity and loneliness.
Thankfully, things are quite different now in my life. My spiritual condition is far healthier than it’s ever been in this lifetime and addictions no longer control my life. I am spending my nights and days currently trying to be selfless in every way I can. And while there are small moments of when I may still revert to my old self-centered behaviors, I can honestly say that I think about other people’s needs and wants more so than my own nowadays.
So what would I do today if I became famous given my current spiritual condition? I would keep right on doing what I’m currently doing and that’s to continue spreading the peace, love, light, and joy that I’m already doing, as this world desperately needs a lot more of that going around…
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson