“Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.” (Unknown)
Fear has consumed me for much of my adult life, especially in regards to my health. Whenever the slightest uncomfortable sensation arose, my first reaction was always to run in fear to a doctor for reassurance, relief, and usually a prescription. After many years of doing this, I began to feel like I was stuck in a perpetual pattern of dependency on the medical world and I truly lost faith in my own healing abilities. I made a pledge to myself a few years ago though that I would begin walking through all those fears and start trusting more in my body and soul’s innate ability to heal itself. This hasn’t been an easy task. In fact, it’s often felt like an uphill battle. Most of the health issues I once suffered from have all been resurfacing throughout this process, as uncomfortable as they were when they first appeared in my life. And along with them has come a tremendous surge of fear that has at times shaken me to my very core. Yet I haven’t been running to the doctor through any of it and instead have done my very best to trust that my body is relearning how to heal itself again. I’ve been frequently told that all these fears that have been arising surrounding my health are just an illusion and the only way I know how to prove that is to keep on doing what I’m doing, no matter how difficult it may feel. And although there are far too many days where the fear seems to suck the life out of me, I’m going to continue trusting in my Higher Power who lives within me that everything is going to be ok.
I pray that I don’t give into any of my fears. I pray I look beyond all of them and trust that in walking through each of them, that all will be ok.
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson