It’s been over four years now since I began working on healing myself holistically. I can’t say it’s been an easy ride as there have been plenty of days like today when I question whether I’ve made any progress at all. But there’s one thing I feel that’s kept me going through all of them, and that’s my belief that I have a greater calling for this life.
As a kid, I used to wish my greater calling would be that I could heal other people from their physical handicaps. Back then when I saw anyone who was missing a limb, paralyzed, or dealing with some other type of disability, I always imagined how wonderful it would be to heal him or her with simply a touch. Part of that desire probably stemmed from the many faith-based healing services I used to attend with my father.
But sadly as I grew older, I got sidetracked into a vast array of addictions from alcohol and drugs, to sex, and to just about everything else. During those addiction-fueled years, I stopped thinking about what my greater calling was and instead focused on my selfish desires to use some type of physical thing in this world for comfort. I watched as my compassion disappeared for those who were suffering in this world and I saw how I didn’t care anymore about looking for my calling at all. But, that all began to change for me though just over four years ago now.
You see it was in 2010 that I started realizing I had spent the majority of this life getting caught up in the dead-end paths that my addictions led me into. I also had discovered that no matter how much stuff I had in life that it never was going to bring me the long-lasting happiness, peace, and love I really desired. All of it reduced me one day into a torrent of tears where I got on my knees and begged Whomever was out there to guide me out of the mess I had placed myself in for years. I blindly asked the Universe to help me get back on the path that would lead me to whatever my greater calling was supposed to be for this lifetime. Soon after that prayer, I developed a lot of physical, mental, and emotional health issues that science and medicine provided me no answers or relief for.
Since then, I have become able to think so much more clearly and my emotions are a lot more stable then they ever used to be. What hasn’t changed YET is my physical health as I still am having extremely difficult days with it, such as today. But what keeps me going and what I still believe inside is that my Higher Guidance has a plan that’s so much bigger than what my brain could ever have imagined for me. I only pray and hope that every part of my essence and being will continue receiving the strength and guidance needed to get me there. While I don’t know whether my greater calling will eventually be what I always imagined as a kid or not, I do know that I’m doing my best today to just trust that my Higher Guidance will lead me to whatever it is.
I truly believe all of us have a greater calling in this world, but unfortunately, so many of us get lost along the way from pursuing it. We end up allowing things such as addictions, money, and power to derail us from the pursuit of it. Thankfully that’s not the case for me anymore. The only thing I’m pursuing these days is my greater calling. And I know what is sustaining me on days like today when my physical pain is so great is my faith that I actually have a greater calling at all. Please God continue to guide me in that direction and thank You for when the day arrives when I am free of all this pain…
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson
