I received polar opposite comments from two separate readers of my blog a few mornings ago mere minutes apart, where the first was overly positive and encouraging, and the second was predominantly negative and judgmental. I was incredibly grateful for the order they arrived in because it continued to show me that as long as I keep my Higher Power in charge, I will often get what I need, when I most need it.
There was a time not long ago though when I didn’t feel like I was getting any of what I needed from my Higher Power, but that’s because my life was fueled almost completely at that time by self-will. This in turn always caused me to create a tremendous amount of drama and fires I had to work very hard to put out on a daily basis. But when I began to turn more and more of my will over to my Higher Power, I noticed that not only did those dramas and fires begin to disappear, I also started receiving the precise things I needed to handle those curve balls when they came my way in life. I felt this way specifically after reading those two conflicting comments the other morning.
The first came in from a reader who personally wanted to thank me for the candor I have when I write. They told me they enjoyed the fact I am very personal and honest in my writing, and said that each of the entries they read were well written. They then shared some personal information about what they connected to in some of my words and at the end of their feedback, they thanked me for listening and encouraged me to keep writing as I have been.
Receiving a comment of this caliber was very uplifting and motivational for me, as there have been days where I’ve wondered if my words are having any type of positive effect on anyone else other than myself. Hence the irony in the second set of comments I received a few minutes later. There, the reader told me quite extensively how they felt I was sharing the same experiences again and again and wasn’t moving on from them. Instead, they thought I was just reliving various abuses over and over again. They also thought through the words they read that I was judging the world for not following exactly as I do in life.
Thankfully, I can safely say that the second reader’s comments didn’t fit me at all and were really never about me. I’ve learned through a lot of hard work that anytime I ever made serious judgments or negative comments on someone else, that it was always about the same things within me I didn’t want to look at. I must say that if I had received this second set of comments by itself that morning, there’s a good chance I might have gone into my head and started doubting all the effort I’ve been placing into my writings for this blog. But the fact is that it’s never been my intention when I write any of the entries for this blog to tell anyone what they need to do in life. I don’t think of myself as better than anyone else either. I’m also not being burdened anymore by my past tragedies in life, and in all actuality, it’s just the opposite. The more I share positively about anything from my past or present, the freer I seem to feel. So frankly, I’m just grateful I received that first set of comments when I did, because the positive energy I received from them truly helped me to deflect all the negative energy I got a few minutes later when I received that second set.
Thus I fully believe my Higher Power knew I was going to need an uplifting boost the other morning and I’m so grateful I got it. I definitely feel in life today that I do get what I need, when I most need it, but it absolutely took turning a lot more of my will over to my Higher Power to finally realize that. And I’m truly glad I did, specifically for times just like this…
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson