When something starts consuming my thinking and bothering me quite a bit, I usually start trying to turn it over to my Higher Power by praying about it. I’ve had to do this rather frequently lately with a situation dealing with a very close friend of mine who has been keeping his distance from me.
While my friend’s lack of communication has seriously challenged my levels of patience, love and tolerance, there is a piece of why it’s happening that I do own. I used to demonstrate a tremendous amount of selfishness and self-centeredness with him over the course of most of the years we’ve been friends. He always forgave me though, but deep down I always believed it would probably one day resurface within him. Although I made my formal amends from these former behaviors with him almost two years ago now, moving away to a new area and not having the constant contact with him somehow has brought it all back up within him again. At this time, I know there’s nothing more I can do other than turn it over to my Higher Power by praying about it. That’s why I decided today I would write the following prayer for reconciliation with this friend. But please know that you may use it as well, if you should ever find yourself in a similar situation one day…
“Dear God, I miss (Person’s Name) greatly. I know I’ve caused some extensive damage to our relationship over the years, but I believe I’m doing my best now to rectify that. I honestly don’t know what more I can do to help (him/her) see that though, other than what I’m already doing. Not hearing from (him/her) has seriously been challenging me on every level to not get angry, and the longer it continues to go on, the more it seems to be making that happen. I don’t want to be angry God, but I don’t understand how I’m supposed to proceed forward in this situation, so I’m asking for Your assistance. I fully turn this problem over to You now and ask that You help (Person’s Name) find total forgiveness in his heart and soul for all the harm I’ve caused (him/her) since the beginning. I ask that You support (him/her) with whatever work (he/she) needs to do within (himself/herself) to get there, so that (he/she) may find the peace inside (he/she) truly deserves. It’s also my hope that You will guide us both to reconciliation, but I completely accept that whatever happens from this point forward is Your will. Until then, I thank You for any guidance and direction You end up sending me on how to handle this. I love you God. Amen.”
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson