Over the past few weeks I’ve been working on getting this new blog up and running and it hasn’t been easy. When I was first notified that my former blog tool was going away for good, it triggered a lot of fear within me. That fear reminded me of a passage that Bill Wilson once wrote in Step Seven of the Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions book and it read as follows:
“The chief activator of our defects has been self-centered fear – primarily fear that we would lose something we already possessed or would fail to get something we demanded.”
Bill Wilson really did have incredible wisdom when it came to the source of all fear. His words have rung so true with every fear-based situation I’ve ever been in, including this one. The root of my fear here was definitely that I was afraid of losing something I already possessed. In my mind, what I possessed was something that was working just fine and that I had finally gotten used to. It also had a built-in readership and decent search results on the web.
Regardless, I had no choice but to begin working on those fears by taking steps to migrate from the old tool to the new one. Night after night I spent hours and hours wracking my brain with this new tool facing many challenges. Each of them kept my level of fear higher as they all were based around me being afraid of losing what I had possessed for the past year and half. Now that I finally have my new blog site up and running, my level of fear has dropped tremendously. While I still do have some fears with WordPress because of some of its limitations, I understand that the only way to get through them is to practice acceptance.
Like I mentioned the other day, I believe that acceptance is truly the key to all my problems today, including any fears I might have. Thus, I have been working on accepting the issues I’m still having with my new blog site and WordPress. In doing so, I find I am feeling a lot more serene then I probably would be feeling otherwise.
I realize now that the next time I face another fear, I only need to apply Bill Wilson’s words from Step Seven to see what the source of that fear is. Once I discover it, I know the solution is to then practice acceptance, as only then I’ll be able experience the serenity I seek in every area of my life.
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson
Disability acceptance and the gov. assistance is scaring the stuffing out of me.I wish I was in the program longer because the tools or the lessons learned in AA probably would of made this upheaval easier to take.
Recovery andy Higher Power are the only things that have gotten me through all the fears and obstacles and hurdles I have has in life these past few years.