In nature, there is a type of relationship called symbiosis where two organisms come together from different species to form a bond that is sometimes, but not always beneficial to both parties. This same principle can also hold true with human beings where two people come together and form a relationship for mutual benefit. Unfortunately, as in nature, there are many instances where those symbiotic relationships aren’t mutually beneficial.
One of the best occurrences of a positive nature based symbiotic connection is probably with a bee and a flower. In that connection, a bee will take its pollen from a flower to make honey, and at the same time, it will naturally spread some of that pollen back to that flower, which in turn helps that flower to reproduce. But then there’s that example of a negative nature based symbiotic connection such as when a tapeworm attaches itself to a host and feeds of it. This in turn deprives that host of some of its food and critical nourishment and can even eventually kill the host.
In the case of human beings, there are many great examples of positive symbiotic relationships. The one I like to refer to most is rather close to home for me as it deals with recovery from addictions. Case in point, take the relationship between a sponsor and a sponsee. In many cases, it is very healthy for a sponsor to focus in on helping a sponsee to walk through the 12 Steps. Not only does this help the sponsor to stay clean from their addiction by getting them out of self, it also helps the newcomer build a solid foundation for their own sobriety and recovery. Essentially it’s all about the positive relationship that can happen between a teacher and their student. But as in nature, there are examples of people who become part of a negative symbiotic relationship where it’s unhealthy for one or both of the parties involved. And sadly, I became involved in quite a few of them for much of my life.
The best example I can provide for one of the many negative symbiotic relationships I fell into is with someone I met back in the fall of 2007. For the sake of anonymity, I’ll refer to this person as John. When we first met, I was new to the Boston area in Massachusetts, I was a dry drunk not working much on my AA recovery, and I was still acting out in various substitute addictions. I befriended John at a random meeting that I had gone to, solely for the purpose of an initial physical attraction I thought I had to him. A week later, we met up for the first time at a restaurant where I learned that John was extremely lonely, that he dealt with a lot of depression, and that he had no real friends. By the end of that meal, while I didn’t feel attracted to him anymore on a physical level, I decided I would “take him on as a friend” in the attempt to try to fix him. At that point in my life, I often tried to fix everyone else because I didn’t want to do the work that was necessary to fix myself. As time moved forward, John allowed me to try to “fix” him and in the process developed a love for me that was both real and obsessive based to him. And the more I tried to fix him, the more he ended up developing that love obsession for me. At the same time, I avoided fixing me and grew more and more toxic because of it. And the more I grew toxic, the more I acted out in other addictions. And the more I acted out in other addictions, the more my life got out of control. And the more my life got out of control, the more I lost my friends and my health. Eventually the only thing that remained in my life was John and my dependency on him. So John fed off of me as he got to be around his love obsession, and I fed off of John as he became the only one who wanted to be around me and who would deal with my daily drama. But neither of us rarely got what we thought we wanted from each other and fights ensued because of it. People used to say we acted like an old married couple (this is a warning sign of a negative symbiotic relationship by the way) as we bickered, fought, argued, and went into anger and rage with each other all the time. After four years of this, and doing many toxic things with him to sustain that connection, I got strong enough in my relationship with God and walked away from it for good. The bottom line is that John and I fed off of each other symbiotically and negatively for way too long. It prevented the both of us from truly working on ourselves individually and growing spiritually. Thankfully, because of my closer relationship with God today, I am free from all of these negative symbiotic relationships. There are many others, especially in recovery, who aren’t though. Often, they stay in them out of some type of mutual gain or from fear of hurting the other person. Sometimes one is receiving “free things” like meals and gifts, while the other who’s giving them is getting the attention they want and avoiding the loneliness they don’t want. All of it really boils down to codependency, which in the long run, will doom any relationship based upon it.
So if you ever find yourself in one of these negative symbiotic relationships, I’d encourage you to take a moment, breathe, and start working on a better relationship with your Higher Power instead. It was my Higher Power that led me away from all of those toxic relationships and my life has become so much more healthier because of it. Know that yours too can follow a similar path as you focus less on feeding off of someone else symbiotically and alternatively start feeding more on what your Higher Power has to offer you…
Peace, love, light, and joy,
Andrew Arthur Dawson